Welcome to Positivealicious, the blog that posts everything positivity. Even If I post about a negative topic, the write-up will have a positive ending. Yes, we live in a world that glorifies negativity, but we don’t have to read about negativity. It’s a choice. There are lots of innovative, positive, and creative individuals who have successful businesses and need to be featured to show our younger generation that hard work will pay off in their futures.
The same advice applies to me. Despite a horrific upbringing, I don’t have to live in anger, anxiety, and bitterness. I made a choice to let go, be happy, and be positive.
I grew up in a negative environment and was sexually abused at six years old. My father and mother gave up on parenting, so my maternal grandmother took over their roles. Even though my grandmother raised me, my mother was around and mentally and verbally abused my brother and me. I grew up hearing I wasn’t pretty, that no one liked or loved me, and that I was alone. The mind is a powerful source. There was a time in my life, during my adolescent years, when I believe the negative thoughts. Plus, I felt alone. My grandmother took care of me to the best of her ability, but that wasn’t enough for me because she also silenced me. I wasn’t allowed to talk about my molestation or my abusive mother, so I thought I wasn’t important to her. I wanted true, divine, unconditional love. In the beginning of my search for love, my journey was hectic because I didn’t know when, what, where or how to get this lost love. I looked for it in the streets, with men, and with babies. Everything I thought would bring me love only resulted in hardships, disappointments, and struggles.
After my divorce, I needed a change. I couldn’t fight this battle alone. The only spirit that who was always there, though I chose not to believe and ignored him, was God.
Surrendering my life to the Lord was the best submission of my life. I got the unconditional love I had yearned for for over thirty years. It wasn’t an easy journey because I had to let go of my understandings and learn from his teachings. Plus, he held me accountable for many things I had chosen to disregard.
When my husband betrayed me, he was there. When people broke my heart, he was there. When my mother abused me, he was there. When I faced hardships such as single parenting, he was there. He saved me in my darkest moments. If I’d continued with these circumstances alone, without faith. I would be under the dirt or residing at a correctional facility. I learned that Jesus was the only way to find peace. He never left me, never forsake me, and guided me to where I needed to be. There are two versus in the bible that changed my life:
The Lord had said to Abram, “Go from your country, your people and your father’s household to the land I will show you.
I will make you into a great nation, and I will bless you;
I will make you name great, and you will be a blessing.
I will bless those who bless you, and whoever curses you I will curse;
And all peoples on the earth will be blessed through you. (Genesis 12)
He will make your vindication shine like the light and the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. (Psalm 37:6)
Currently, I serve the Lord everyday through meditation and prayer. I published my first novel, Please Help Me, Santa, in April 2016. I have three amazing kids. My boys are growing up healthy, happy and are being raised in a beautiful environment. My daughter is attending college. I am ready for more blessings that God has in store for my family and me.
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